The search continues...

Ok, I must appologize.  I have been a huge blog slacker!!!  I haven't posted anything in over a month!!  How has this happened?  I don't know. 

Well, I have had several weekends of visitors....My friend Letty, who I lived with in college at Shoemaker, came the weekend before Halloween to visit some of her family.  We met up Friday night and went to Purdue Alumni Event and then hit up Bourbon Street.  Saturday I went to her cousin's costume/birthday party.  It was a fun filled weekend.

Lynn, Wiseman, and the Ahnerts came over Halloween weekend.  It was a week of pure fun!  We dressed up in costumes and acted like kids.  We trotted around the French Quarter and drank at probably 50 different bars.  We went on a swamp tour.  But probably the funnest day was this day we all just walked around the French Market and the Quarter popping in and out of art galleries, shops and of course bars.  It was one of the funnest days I have had in a long time. 

Then after they left I was horribly sad and depressed that they were gone and I was once again without friends.  The weeks following I had a series of interviews that went nowhere.  I even had three interviews for one position (that I wasn't even really sure if I wanted or not) and didn't get it.  But nevertheless, I felt crushed, devestated, and rejected.  How could it be?  What did I do wrong?  Why didn't they like me?  How many jobs have I applied for?  How do I not have a job yet?  I am sort of sick about it.  I have kind of been avoiding calling people because inevitabley I know they will ask the dreaded question "How is the job search going?"  I know people are just asking to be kind because they really do care, but I still hate it.  I just want to say "Obviously it's not going too well because I don't have a job yet!"  A few weeks ago Mills had a dinner meeting after work and I sat home alone drowning my sorrows in wine and feeling sorry for myself and sort of had a breakdown crying.  It was ridiculous.  I was just feeling sad and lonely.  I miss my friends everyday.  My throat is hurting right now as I am typing this.  I can't stand being so far away from all my friends.  No more happy hours, no more sleepovers, no more pool parties, no more driving down to Indy for the night to hang out with the crew.  Those days are gone and I fear I will never make friends down here.  I asked Mills a few weeks ago if he missed his friends and he said "No, I have you" (and I must mention he wasn't being sarcastic, he was totally serious).  I love him so much, he truly is my best friend and as sweet as that was, I surely can't say I feel the same way he does.  I have always had tons of friends my entire life.  I have so many groups of friends I keep in touch with and used to hang out with on a regular basis that I sort of feel like I am living in isolation down here.  I am sure things will get better once I find a damned job.  I have too much time to sit around and think and be lonely.  I analyze things to death and just think about stuff too much.  I have been keeping myself somewhat busy with projects and stuff but I still have too much free time on my hands.

Enough of my pity party.  Last week my mom and Gary came to visit.  We spent a few days doing siteseeing stuff and cooked a big dinner on Thanksgiving.  My first year hosting my very own Thanksgiving!  Our landlord fried us a real cajun turkey.  I made veggies and dip, spinich dip, cheeseball and crackers, mashed potatoes, stuffing, green bean cassarole, sweet potatoes, collard greens, squash cassarole, bean salad, devilled eggs and I even baked and apple and pecan pie from scratch!  Whoa!  It was all pretty delish I must say.  Then my mom and I went shopping on Black Friday and tried to get flat screen TV's at Best Buy and Target that we saw in the ads.  We got to Best Buy at about 4:50am.  Little did we know that people had been waiting in line since 11pm the night before.  Before they opened the doors someone came outside and announced that all the TV's in the ads were gone.  They passed out tickets to the first so many people waiting in line and they got the TV's, computers, etc. that were advertised at a cheap price.  The people waiting in front of us told us that they went to Target at 1am and waited until the doors opened at 4am and the TV's in the ads were all gone in 22 minutes.  What is this madness?!?!!  So basically we were SOL!  But it was fun anyways.  Then my mom and Gary left Friday afternoon.  Mills parents are coming down the weekend before Christmas so they will be our next visitors.  Ok, signing off for now.

I promise to write more often. 
XOXO